I’ve been having hot flashes non stop lately. I haven’t slept a full night in months. One moment I feel fine, the next it’s like my bones are radiators in a prewar walk up in NYC. For those who don’t know what that means, radiators in those buildings have only two settings. Off when theContinue reading “Feeling occasionally positive about menopause”
Author Archives: Cindy
The support of women
I recently went on a company team building ice skating outing at the iconic Bryant Park in New York City. It was a beautiful thought and was much needed since we’re all gearing up for our busy season. I talked a good game to my co workers. I used to skate every weekend! I couldContinue reading “The support of women”
Feeling the presence of a loved one that’s passed
When my twin died, I felt it. We had just turned 19. I was driving and stuck in stand still traffic. I felt the wind get knocked out of me from behind. In a moment, I felt everything then nothing. But the nothing lasted only a second. The nothing became everything. It was warm. ItContinue reading “Feeling the presence of a loved one that’s passed”
The one were my twin and I thought we would die at age 10
I remember my 5th birthday. My twin brother and I couldn’t sleep that night. We knew there was an event happening. The event was our 5th birthday. For whatever reason, we thought we wouldn’t make it to 10. We thought 10 was “old age”. I slipped into my brothers bed. He was great full. AlthoughContinue reading “The one were my twin and I thought we would die at age 10”
Waiting for it to hit me
The on going experience of grief
Cat Zoom Call Christmas 2023
Belle Sammy Hey girl… whoa…. What’s that!? Belle My human. And a thing that makes noise. It’s making noises I don’t appreciate. It’s small but it sounds really overwhelming… Sammy I can hear! I literally jumped to a different place! Your human looks like it’s ignoring you. Belle It is, but that’s okay for now.Continue reading “Cat Zoom Call Christmas 2023”
The Last Transition
I lost my dad this past Friday 12:57am December 8, 2023. That’s when our hospice nurse declared his passing. They didn’t use the word death and now I see why. It’s so negative and final. It implies the person is extinguished like a flame. Gone from history. I don’t believe that people are ever goneContinue reading “The Last Transition”
The Radio
Fandango’s Story Starter #103 When Ida discovered that she could hear the voices of the dead speaking to her when she tuned into a certain radio station, she decided to live. She had been planning on killing herself for the better part of a month and felt a sense of relief for the first timeContinue reading “The Radio”
52nd Anniversary
52 years! Happy anniversary to my parents. Molly and Benny. They’ve been through so much. My dad chatted up my mom on a NYC subway. He thought she had great legs. She was carrying some bags so naturally he offered to help. That’s what he says but I think it was more. I think relationshipsContinue reading “52nd Anniversary”
Today Many Years Ago…
A person was lost. He was in turmoil, on trial, looking at a prison sentence. He was also loved. We had a barbecue the day before and I now know, he said goodbye. To our little cousins, to me, to the world. I went to bed, in a state of calmness because of this. TheContinue reading “Today Many Years Ago…”