I remember my 5th birthday. My twin brother and I couldn’t sleep that night. We knew there was an event happening. The event was our 5th birthday. For whatever reason, we thought we wouldn’t make it to 10. We thought 10 was “old age”. I slipped into my brothers bed. He was great full. AlthoughContinue reading “The one were my twin and I thought we would die at age 10”
Author Archives: Cindy
Waiting for it to hit me
The on going experience of grief
Cat Zoom Call Christmas 2023
Belle Sammy Hey girl… whoa…. What’s that!? Belle My human. And a thing that makes noise. It’s making noises I don’t appreciate. It’s small but it sounds really overwhelming… Sammy I can hear! I literally jumped to a different place! Your human looks like it’s ignoring you. Belle It is, but that’s okay for now.Continue reading “Cat Zoom Call Christmas 2023”
The Last Transition
I lost my dad this past Friday 12:57am December 8, 2023. That’s when our hospice nurse declared his passing. They didn’t use the word death and now I see why. It’s so negative and final. It implies the person is extinguished like a flame. Gone from history. I don’t believe that people are ever goneContinue reading “The Last Transition”
The Radio
Fandango’s Story Starter #103 When Ida discovered that she could hear the voices of the dead speaking to her when she tuned into a certain radio station, she decided to live. She had been planning on killing herself for the better part of a month and felt a sense of relief for the first timeContinue reading “The Radio”
52nd Anniversary
52 years! Happy anniversary to my parents. Molly and Benny. They’ve been through so much. My dad chatted up my mom on a NYC subway. He thought she had great legs. She was carrying some bags so naturally he offered to help. That’s what he says but I think it was more. I think relationshipsContinue reading “52nd Anniversary”
Today Many Years Ago…
A person was lost. He was in turmoil, on trial, looking at a prison sentence. He was also loved. We had a barbecue the day before and I now know, he said goodbye. To our little cousins, to me, to the world. I went to bed, in a state of calmness because of this. TheContinue reading “Today Many Years Ago…”
Girl World
Watching previously loved 90’s films like Clueless and currently Mean Girls. Problematic to say the least but it wasn’t recognized at this time. Terms like “retarded” we’re thrown around at will. Any gay character was comic relief nothing else. Asians were “nerds”, there may or may not of been black characters, if there were theyContinue reading “Girl World”
Casey Anthony Doc
Just watched this. Wow! As a survivor of sexual abuse it hit home. I remember this case. I along with everyone condemned her. She killed her kid so she could party like most people in their early 20’s. That was the narrative. How could she smile when her child was missing? Why was her childContinue reading “Casey Anthony Doc”
Cat Zoom Call, Christmas Issues
Harry Hello? Belle Harry? What are you doing with Sammy’s phone? Is she there? Harry She is and she’s being annoying! She’s near me! It’s Belle. She called me while I was sleeping on your phone and she woke me up. Sammy Number 1, DON’T SLEEP ON MY PHONE, Number 2, IT’S MY TURN TOContinue reading “Cat Zoom Call, Christmas Issues”