When my twin died, I felt it. He was hit by a train from the back. I was driving at the time, and I felt the wind get knocked out of me. That was the impact. I had dreamt of his death for years. From as long as I can remember, I mean, 4 yearsContinue reading “When my twin died…”
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My twin
He had dreams. He wanted to help. He was my parents son. He held them in such high regard. My mom who went back to school to be a social worker in her 40’s. My dad who graduated high school and went back to school in his 40’s. They both had designs to bring peopleContinue reading “My twin”
We thought we’d live till 10
My twin brother and I, on the night before our 5th birthday, snuggled together. As we did on Christmas Eve. We fought with each other daily but actually loved each other and were there for each other. We had it in our minds, that age 10 was the oldest you could be. We could countContinue reading “We thought we’d live till 10”
What I’ve learned on my dad’s deathbed
How to Remain Positive
The state of affairs are grim at best right now in America. “The land of the free” is most definitely not. We have this new faction called ICE, whose main job is to obtain anyone who seems like they’re “not supposed to be here”. By that I mean, anyone who isn’t white, speaks with anContinue reading “How to Remain Positive”
Propaganda vs Zeitgeist
Everything put forth has an effect on public opinion. For instance: in this age of social media, things happening in Minnesota are being recorded and commented on. If we think of “the chicken before the egg” what we’re experiencing in a global sense is, the egg before the chick But, as Americans, we know theContinue reading “Propaganda vs Zeitgeist”
The Male Female divide
The other day, I was on the subway and I saw these two young men talking to one young female. The two young men were doing everything they could to convince her to “hang out”. They were so respectful and kind to her. It took 4 stops to establish that they all would “hang” laterContinue reading “The Male Female divide”
The Meek Shall Inherit The Earth
I’ve always been fascinated by this statement. Wars are fought by the bold. Many people die in defense of the bold. Many people celebrate the bold. Large amounts of people are killed as a result. “The meek” I always thought that meant “weak”. “Feeble” Not capable of anything. I don’t consider myself in the sameContinue reading “The Meek Shall Inherit The Earth”
I’m in my crone era “don’t give a shit?”
I guess that means I’m a woman 50 or over. I’m experienced, been through some shit. Made it through but still experiencing shit. Work interpersonal shit. Having to react to other people’s interpersonal shit. Other people’s interpersonal shit being a thing. My own interpersonal shit there too. Juggling all that interpersonal shit whilst trying toContinue reading “I’m in my crone era “don’t give a shit?””
Full Menopause
When we’re young girl’s going through puberty we learn to stay silent. I got my first period on a camp sleepover. I was 10 years old. I woke up and thought I was dying. I saw blood. Later, my mom told me what that was. I was “a woman”. It sounded like a threat. AllContinue reading “Full Menopause”