I can’t stop sweating. My left breast has a sharp pain that I thought was a deadly pulmonary embolism today. I considered stopping my life and all my dire responsibilities to go to the ER at 7 am today. I thought better of it because I still need my job. I still need my jobContinue reading “I can’t believe what’s happening, personally”
Category Archives: menopause
Full Menopause
When we’re young girl’s going through puberty we learn to stay silent. I got my first period on a camp sleepover. I was 10 years old. I woke up and thought I was dying. I saw blood. Later, my mom told me what that was. I was “a woman”. It sounded like a threat. AllContinue reading “Full Menopause”
I feel passable today
Ever since turning 49 it’s been touch and go. I feel okay one minute and not okay the next. That’s my inner feelings. They don’t make their way to the surface. I appear stoic. And I am in so many ways. Society doesn’t understand this about women. We can be one thing entirely and anotherContinue reading “I feel passable today”
Feeling occasionally positive about menopause
I’ve been having hot flashes non stop lately. I haven’t slept a full night in months. One moment I feel fine, the next it’s like my bones are radiators in a prewar walk up in NYC. For those who don’t know what that means, radiators in those buildings have only two settings. Off when theContinue reading “Feeling occasionally positive about menopause”