I can’t stop sweating. My left breast has a sharp pain that I thought was a deadly pulmonary embolism today. I considered stopping my life and all my dire responsibilities to go to the ER at 7 am today. I thought better of it because I still need my job. I still need my jobContinue reading “I can’t believe what’s happening, personally”
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Full circle
The plight of women. We go through our first period as pre teens. We’re insecure at that point, hyper aware of what people think, our physical appearance can seem like everything. Then we get older and own who we are. We’re good. Then perimenopause. It’s like a second right of passage. We spent years facilitatingContinue reading “Full circle”
How to Remain Positive
The state of affairs are grim at best right now in America. “The land of the free” is most definitely not. We have this new faction called ICE, whose main job is to obtain anyone who seems like they’re “not supposed to be here”. By that I mean, anyone who isn’t white, speaks with anContinue reading “How to Remain Positive”
Full Menopause
When we’re young girl’s going through puberty we learn to stay silent. I got my first period on a camp sleepover. I was 10 years old. I woke up and thought I was dying. I saw blood. Later, my mom told me what that was. I was “a woman”. It sounded like a threat. AllContinue reading “Full Menopause”
Hospice
When my dad finally got approved to go to a specific hospice, he was moved so quickly. Thank God, I thought. There they would give him pain meds. They would attend to him when he Shat himself. I thought, finally, he’d get the empathy to die in a dignified way. I was right. His roomContinue reading “Hospice”
Feeling occasionally positive about menopause
I’ve been having hot flashes non stop lately. I haven’t slept a full night in months. One moment I feel fine, the next it’s like my bones are radiators in a prewar walk up in NYC. For those who don’t know what that means, radiators in those buildings have only two settings. Off when theContinue reading “Feeling occasionally positive about menopause”
Magical Norway from an American point of view
I visited Scandinavia a couple years ago. Couldn’t tell you how many exactly, there were a couple years that disappeared in the pandemic. I was shocked at their philosophy when it comes to government and what the government does for the people. They have a philosophy. From the cradle to the grave. It means, youContinue reading “Magical Norway from an American point of view”
The progress of women in the recent past from the pov of an almost “older” woman
I grew up in a passively sexist society. The 1980’s. This time warranted the song “Girls Just Wanna Have Fun” by Cyndi Lauper. I can relate. I washed dishes while my brother, the same age, was left to his own devices with his transformers and his castle grey skull. My She-Ra and little ponies wouldContinue reading “The progress of women in the recent past from the pov of an almost “older” woman”
Thank God For My Cats!
I’m someone who takes on the emotions of others. Not just in the moment as it’s happening, those emotions fester within me for an uncomfortable length of time. I used to think this might be a personal flaw, a sign of emotional intolerance when it comes to others but I can handle my own emotions.Continue reading “Thank God For My Cats!”
I Was a Nanny
I’ve had many jobs. Cashier and eventually key holder at Dunkin doughnuts, Food emporium, deli worker, telemarketer, bagel emporium worker, local library clerk. Before that, during the week, 13 to 20, I was a babysitter. At 13 I watched a couple of kids. They were great. I remember one in particular, a little girl whoContinue reading “I Was a Nanny”