My twin brother and I, on the night before our 5th birthday, snuggled together. As we did on Christmas Eve. We fought with each other daily but actually loved each other and were there for each other. We had it in our minds, that age 10 was the oldest you could be. We could countContinue reading “We thought we’d live till 10”
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What I’ve learned on my dad’s deathbed
The Meek Shall Inherit The Earth
I’ve always been fascinated by this statement. Wars are fought by the bold. Many people die in defense of the bold. Many people celebrate the bold. Large amounts of people are killed as a result. “The meek” I always thought that meant “weak”. “Feeble” Not capable of anything. I don’t consider myself in the sameContinue reading “The Meek Shall Inherit The Earth”
Full Menopause
When we’re young girl’s going through puberty we learn to stay silent. I got my first period on a camp sleepover. I was 10 years old. I woke up and thought I was dying. I saw blood. Later, my mom told me what that was. I was “a woman”. It sounded like a threat. AllContinue reading “Full Menopause”
Half a Person: When a Twin Dies
When my twin brother and I were turning 10, we were convinced that we would die soon. We thought you couldn’t live past age 10. I remember our 5th birthday. We looked at each other, knowing, with a feeling we shouldn’t have felt at that age. We silently commiserated that we were old. We wereContinue reading “Half a Person: When a Twin Dies”
The Take Down of Women and the takedown of reasons.
Throughout history women have attempted to take power. It’s unfortunately seen as monstrous and unnatural. Even though the Bible clearly states “the meek shall inherit the earth.” The “meek” means smaller and lighter. Meaning women. Women are much smarter, less prone to war,therefore much more destined for sustained peace. This current regime means to undermineContinue reading “The Take Down of Women and the takedown of reasons.”
Thoughts as an American visiting England
England has the NHS. National Health Services. It’s not tied to your job, only your citizenship. Having just gotten back from there, I have some thoughts. They have a community that we don’t have here in The United States. We’re currently every man for himself. Arguably it’s always been that way. I took an UberContinue reading “Thoughts as an American visiting England”
What does it all mean
When my dad was moved to hospice I was terrified. On that day, I had the nerve to suggest to my mom that we see him to hospice then go home and come back the next day. She had the foresight to see that it was the end and we needed to stay where weContinue reading “What does it all mean”
Why the loss of a pet is a valid loss
There are people who “have pets”. Then there are people who consider pets as a part of their immediate family. I’m the latter. In fact, almost everyone in my immediate biological family is the same in this regard I grew up with cats. I don’t remember a time without cats. True lovers of cats orContinue reading “Why the loss of a pet is a valid loss”
I feel passable today
Ever since turning 49 it’s been touch and go. I feel okay one minute and not okay the next. That’s my inner feelings. They don’t make their way to the surface. I appear stoic. And I am in so many ways. Society doesn’t understand this about women. We can be one thing entirely and anotherContinue reading “I feel passable today”