I guess that means I’m a woman 50 or over. I’m experienced, been through some shit. Made it through but still experiencing shit. Work interpersonal shit. Having to react to other people’s interpersonal shit. Other people’s interpersonal shit being a thing. My own interpersonal shit there too. Juggling all that interpersonal shit whilst trying toContinue reading “I’m in my crone era “don’t give a shit?””
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Full Menopause
When we’re young girl’s going through puberty we learn to stay silent. I got my first period on a camp sleepover. I was 10 years old. I woke up and thought I was dying. I saw blood. Later, my mom told me what that was. I was “a woman”. It sounded like a threat. AllContinue reading “Full Menopause”
Half a Person: When a Twin Dies
When my twin brother and I were turning 10, we were convinced that we would die soon. We thought you couldn’t live past age 10. I remember our 5th birthday. We looked at each other, knowing, with a feeling we shouldn’t have felt at that age. We silently commiserated that we were old. We wereContinue reading “Half a Person: When a Twin Dies”
Why the loss of a pet is a valid loss
There are people who “have pets”. Then there are people who consider pets as a part of their immediate family. I’m the latter. In fact, almost everyone in my immediate biological family is the same in this regard I grew up with cats. I don’t remember a time without cats. True lovers of cats orContinue reading “Why the loss of a pet is a valid loss”
Dates that changed me on a cellular level
December 8 2023 is one. The day my dad took his last breath. I never imagined I’d hear it but I did. It was labored. In hospice. It was the “death rattle”. It was late. He’d been in hospice for a night. I know now that he’d been in transit before he’d gotten there. InContinue reading “Dates that changed me on a cellular level”
Hospice
When my dad finally got approved to go to a specific hospice, he was moved so quickly. Thank God, I thought. There they would give him pain meds. They would attend to him when he Shat himself. I thought, finally, he’d get the empathy to die in a dignified way. I was right. His roomContinue reading “Hospice”
Feeling occasionally positive about menopause
I’ve been having hot flashes non stop lately. I haven’t slept a full night in months. One moment I feel fine, the next it’s like my bones are radiators in a prewar walk up in NYC. For those who don’t know what that means, radiators in those buildings have only two settings. Off when theContinue reading “Feeling occasionally positive about menopause”
The support of women
I recently went on a company team building ice skating outing at the iconic Bryant Park in New York City. It was a beautiful thought and was much needed since we’re all gearing up for our busy season. I talked a good game to my co workers. I used to skate every weekend! I couldContinue reading “The support of women”
The one were my twin and I thought we would die at age 10
I remember my 5th birthday. My twin brother and I couldn’t sleep that night. We knew there was an event happening. The event was our 5th birthday. For whatever reason, we thought we wouldn’t make it to 10. We thought 10 was “old age”. I slipped into my brothers bed. He was great full. AlthoughContinue reading “The one were my twin and I thought we would die at age 10”
Waiting for it to hit me
The on going experience of grief