I can’t stop sweating.
My left breast has a sharp pain that I thought was a deadly pulmonary embolism today.
I considered stopping my life and all my dire responsibilities to go to the ER at 7 am today.
I thought better of it because I still need my job.
I still need my job to need me.
I had to choose my livelihood, because I still need to afford life.
Life is hard right now. I struggle through it like I’ve never struggled before.
And my life has not been easy.
I could’ve never imagined how debilitating these symptoms could be.
And all because I was born with a uterus.
Born to be able to grow life within me.
We still live in a patriarchal society so my struggles are not recognized.
I might as well be hysterical!
Deserving of this discomfort based on my sex.
I’m in my prime professionally.
But I have to suppress the copious amount of sweat coming from my pores, I have to suppress the impatience I feel with people who still don’t listen to what I’m saying because I gave a lyrical female voice even though I have the experience to know what I’m talking about.
I just have to grin and bear it.
As I’ve always done.
And wait for a man to tell me I’m deserving of respect.
I just fucking can’t today….
