I recently lost Samantha, my best friend, my best cat. She was in pain for a couple weeks, those who love pets know how painful that is to watch. When she was healthy she would greet me at the door to my apartment. She’d throw herself on the ground after I’d greet her. Exposing herContinue reading “My Cat”
Tag Archives: Cat fiction
Just getting by
After experiencing my dad on his deathbed not much matters. It seems any effort in this life is irrelevant. But here we are. We can’t live without going through the motions. Going through the motions seems to be all we can do. I guess that’s okay. I’ll take it. It told me, the only thingContinue reading “Just getting by”
The shrinking woman
I’m 49. I think I’m still attractive to men. But I don’t care. People still won’t give their seats on the subway to me. I’m okay with that. It must mean I look younger than I am. But I’m older. And I do need a seat. I have understood that at my age, I willContinue reading “The shrinking woman”
The Bikeriders
It’s a film out right now that not many people get. It’s hitting me differently. maybe because I lost my dad recently. It’s the son father connection that gets me. The Austin Butler character and Tom Hardy character that gets me. In the film, a young man is coveted by an older man. At theContinue reading “The Bikeriders”
Hospice
When my dad finally got approved to go to a specific hospice, he was moved so quickly. Thank God, I thought. There they would give him pain meds. They would attend to him when he Shat himself. I thought, finally, he’d get the empathy to die in a dignified way. I was right. His roomContinue reading “Hospice”
The one were my twin and I thought we would die at age 10
I remember my 5th birthday. My twin brother and I couldn’t sleep that night. We knew there was an event happening. The event was our 5th birthday. For whatever reason, we thought we wouldn’t make it to 10. We thought 10 was “old age”. I slipped into my brothers bed. He was great full. AlthoughContinue reading “The one were my twin and I thought we would die at age 10”
Waiting for it to hit me
The on going experience of grief
Cat Zoom Call Christmas 2023
Belle Sammy Hey girl… whoa…. What’s that!? Belle My human. And a thing that makes noise. It’s making noises I don’t appreciate. It’s small but it sounds really overwhelming… Sammy I can hear! I literally jumped to a different place! Your human looks like it’s ignoring you. Belle It is, but that’s okay for now.Continue reading “Cat Zoom Call Christmas 2023”
The Last Transition
I lost my dad this past Friday 12:57am December 8, 2023. That’s when our hospice nurse declared his passing. They didn’t use the word death and now I see why. It’s so negative and final. It implies the person is extinguished like a flame. Gone from history. I don’t believe that people are ever goneContinue reading “The Last Transition”
52nd Anniversary
52 years! Happy anniversary to my parents. Molly and Benny. They’ve been through so much. My dad chatted up my mom on a NYC subway. He thought she had great legs. She was carrying some bags so naturally he offered to help. That’s what he says but I think it was more. I think relationshipsContinue reading “52nd Anniversary”