We’ve all been through hell.
We’ve all thought about what we want.
What we need.
What we’re willing to accept for a paycheck.
We’ve been there. We’ve been absolute in our findings.
We’ve re entered society.
We’ve found our approach different.
We’ve tried to adhere to our knew findings.
It’s worked to a point.
Work is work.
Capitalism is capitalism.
I tried.
I tried to look after myself spiritually but then reality grabbed me by the neck.
I need to pay rent. I need money to survive.
I need to bend my beliefs to survive.
I forgot.
It’s been so long that I forgot.
I forgot my beliefs could be blended.
I forgot my beliefs could change based on what I need. Right now.
I forgot how dire my situation was.
If I don’t earn a paycheck this week, I’m fucked.
During the pandemic, I learned so much about what I need. So much about what I want.
I could be so happy but then reality set in.
I need to remember what I need. What I want.
Then, I’m back to square one.